Wednesday, January 14, 2015

1826 days ago...

… Dave and I bundled three, small, crying children onto an Air Asia, $49 dollar, one-way flight bound for Chiangmai.

… we said goodbye to a home that we loved and a safety net of friends and family whom we adored.

… we swapped "normal" for different.

… we gave up trying to plan and predict and have control.

… we stopped earning an income and really started relying on Our Provider to supply all our needs.

… we started caring more and crying more and praying more.

… we began waiing, removing our shoes at the front door and trying foods that we'd never heard of.

… we learnt sounds and tones that English words just don't have.

… and we got a glimpse of the plan God had for our family.

1826 days ago…

… life as we knew it changed and so did we.

It's hard to describe, sum up or put into words just how thankful we are for this journey we're on.  Just by flipping through some of our blog posts I hope you can see how faithful God has been and how much we just love serving Him.  People, circumstances and life can be unkind but God is good - all the time - and nothing has been more true for us this past 5 years.

This week I have had enjoyed reminiscing our journey so far by looking through some old photos and videos.

Join me for a trip down memory lane!  Here's a small overview of the past 5 years here in Thailand.

January 2010- January 2015

The children's first visit to the new ZOE home.
Before we had a car...
Flag bearer, International Day at kindergarten.

Lunch at the ZOE kid's school.
Tobi's first field trip.
Eliana's first field trip.
 Border run to Burma.
 Shoe distribution to a local village.
 Moo ping for breakfast.
 Riding elephants!
Thai wedding in the village.

 Kid's camp at ZOE.
Celebrating Christmas with our ZOE family.
 Hmmm… odd one out!
 Village visit.
A visit to the zoo.
Run for Relief 5km fun run. 
 Friends from Bangkok, 13 people in the car!
 At the elephant camp.
 Our first Christmas (and fake tree).

 Lantern festival
Visiting a village.


Our ZOE missionary family- back then!
 Kindergarten friends.
 This lady's son lived in Australia!
 Rainy season!
 New experiences!
Soda-in-a-bag
 Breakfast on-the-go
 Lime stone water falls
 Eli Thai dancing.
 Stopping on the side of the road for dinner.
 Our very first Thanksgiving.

 Hospital visit.
 Graduation!
 Barbecue dinner at ZOE.
 Chapel.
 Off to preschool!
 Fun at the waterfalls.
 ANZAC Day- Thai style.
Games at ZOE.

And now...


We're excited to see what God's got planned for the next 5 years.  
Thanks so much for supporting us on this journey.  

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Have or Have Not?

We don't get stacks of mail here so when I saw that there was something in our letterbox, I opened it immediately and found a Christmas card that instantly warmed my heart.

I think it's because we're in this day and age of "instant" everything that I found this card so delightful.

Written in a small farm house in an Australian country town named Yackandandah, a very special lady had sat and scribed the words in beautiful old-style cursive handwriting.

In a year when I've found it hard to remember to call, email or even text my friends and family for important occasions, here is this lovely nana, on another side of the world, still thinking and penning out a Christmas message to her grandson and his family despite the fact that they live all the way over in south east Asia!
How precious is that?

Well not only have my emails and calls been few and far between, this year's annual Cross Family Christmas letter…{ummm} never happened!  {sigh} Which brings me to the name of this post, 'Have or Have Not?'

I realise as 2014 draws to a end that I could easily sit here and list all the things the weren't… that haven't happened, that never succeeded, that didn't get finished (or started!!) and have not turned out as I would've liked.

Or, I could finish the year focusing on the 'haves' in my life.
I'm not going to lie, 2014 has been challenging, but through the tears and the questions and the frustrations and the anger, there has also been so much blessing and laughter.
There have been friends that have encouraged me right when I needed it.  There has been answers and healing and joy.  There has been dancing and singing and giggles.
There has been double bouncing on trampolines and pretend wrestles and rollerblading.  There have been birthday celebrations, a surprise party, a ZOE wedding and numerous baptisms.
Swimming and feasting and snuggling with books on the couch.

2014 saw bugs caught, teeth lost, growth spurts, timetables learnt, ears pierced and laces tied.

When I look at our year and I see all God has done I am in awe.  His faithfulness never ceases.
With every sorrow and loss and disappointment and challenge, He has doubled my joy and blessing and thankfulness and mission.

I don't know what 2015 holds, whether it will be "easy" or "hard" but I do know this, that I can be glad for what I have and for what God is doing.

And just like I can trust that God will provide again for me, so too with this bite sized piece of faith do I  trust for my husband and children that He will also be "enough" for them.

From our home to yours, Happy New Year!  {deep breath}
Yep…. I am ready!

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Not Through My Eyes...

As I was driving through the city the other day, I was reminiscing about when we used to live there.  
I actually really miss living in the city, more than I thought I would. 
Anyway, I was remembering back to one of the times that some of the ZOE kids had come over to our house.  
This particular time, the youth had an outing but some of them weren’t able to go so they’d arranged to come to our house for pizza and to play the wii. 

We’d sat around on the tile floor laughing and eating.  Once dinner was complete, I was impressed by their initiative to pack up and clean up where we’d been sitting.  After we’d all pitched in, Dave set up the wii and for the next couple of hours we sat around watching and laughing as we all took turns skiing, tight rope walking, hula hooping etc. 
As the night wore on, our usually hyperactive young son began to slowly become weary.  
After his turn, he nestled into the lap of one of the teenage boys and sat there so at ease and comfortable and unusually calm.  I remember looking over and smiling.   
And it was this picture in my mind that I would not forget.  My son was sitting in the lap of one of the boys who I had had in my English class many months earlier.  He had begun in my class not long after coming to ZOE… the one under the table!
What struck me as I remembered back fondly on this time was the way in which my young son, not knowing this teenage boy’s past, saw him for who he really is.  Our little son had no preconceived ideas. He had no concerns about the past and only positive thoughts for the future.  He simply saw a new friend.

And it's like that with God.  We don’t have to work for His acceptance.  He already sees us as acceptable, valuable, lovable, forgivable and capable. 

Sometimes as adults we seem to look through "glasses" of pity, shock, embarrassment, unworthiness, sadness or the world’s standards of success and beauty.  

But I need to be reminded again and again to become just like a child and understand how God sees each one of us.  
Only then can I accept that there's value inside of myself and recognise the value in others.

Last week I had a great time, retrieving things from my "too hard basket".  I went to bed early each night and got up early each morning, I reversed parked and several other things that I had pretty much given up on being able to/ or wanting to do.
This week's challenge, seeing others not through my eyes.  Searching for the good in others and seeing them as God sees them!  
Phew! I'll be honest… It's going to be a challenge!


Sunday, November 23, 2014

My Too Hard Basket

I have this basket.  You might have one too.  It's labeled "too hard".  And in it I throw things like learning Thai, speaking in public and getting to bed early.
Mostly the things I throw in there stay in there.  For good.
But just recently I began to wonder what would happen if I looked in there and rescued a couple of things out. 
If I gave them another chance and tried them one more time.  What if…
What if I dug down deep and forgave that person one more time... what if I started Thai lessons again... what if exercising became a part of my daily routine... what if I kept praying for that break through and didn't give up?
Well, it's been 4 weeks since we've been back in Thailand now and I am happy to report that some of the things that I had previously deemed too hard have recently been salvaged and re-examined.  
I am pleased to say that I have completed three weeks of Thai study, attending three mornings a week and I have signed up for the next block of lessons too which {surprisingly} I am very excited about.  
Thanks to those dear friends in Australia who offered to pray about this for me. I actually have a really fun- yes- fun teacher, which is what I needed and a new enjoyment for language learning! Whoowhoo!!
I have also started exercising daily.  I have an accountability partner and I feel good about it staying as a realistic part of my daily routine.
Whilst it all seems to be going well at the moment, I do know that it is "early days"… very early days so I am being honest and saying that there will be days I don't exercise and some weeks that I might not complete all my Thai homework but with determination, accountability and the prayers of those who know me, I am hopeful!
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It sounds like everyone is pretty busy right now.  With Christmas and concerts and parties and the end of the year rapidly approaching.  
Whilst there have been some really challenging days lately, I have to say that I have enjoyed so many individual moments these past few weeks and the chance to reflect on God's faithfulness, mercy and grace.
This week we celebrate Thanksgiving with our dear ZOE family.  We are all really looking forward to this and I am hoping to do a trial-run of my pumpkin-snicker-doodle recipe in the next day or so.   
Other highlights have included leading kid's church as a family last week.  Our three children were such great helpers and eagerly acted some skits we'd prepared at home to illustrate various parts of the lesson from Revelation.


I have also enjoyed helping with some reading assessments at our children's school.  It has been great to be able to assist in this way.
Tobi, Eli and Spencer continue to grow, learn and change.  It never ceases to amaze me.  
We had such a lovely time celebrating Spencer's 6th birthday earlier this month with his friends coming to a Hot Wheels party at our home.  

I have also enjoyed having timetables races with Eliana (me having to answer in Thai) and watch as the children improve their skills in various areas.  Tobi is enjoying learning the guitar and Eliana has recently begun having a private Thai lesson after school.  
We recently had two new field workers join the ZOE team, Lori and Brad.  We had a fun day with them on Friday helping them to finalise their rental agreement and showing them around the local area.

Our kids are also loving getting the chance to play with our Thai neighbour.  There is a sweet 9 year old boy next door who enjoys coming over for a game of drive-way soccer, freeze tag or hide-and-seek.  Yesterday more children had joined in too and there was quite a crowd gathering!
This morning we headed to ZOE.  Dave was sharing this morning and we had a quick lunch with some of our co-workers before attending a baptism for some of the ZOE children and teenagers. 
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Well maybe you don't have a too hard basket like me, but if you do, let's both go grab something else out this week and give it another go!  Shall we?  What will it be?  Befriending that neighbour? Making that difficult phone call? Staying calm in the face of a distressing situation? Apologising?
I already know what I am going to be pulling out and it's a big one!  
Well I'm not sure what's in your basket but I do hope that each week I can take things out of mine bit by bit and not just keep filling it full of life's challenges.  
I know if I really grasped Philippians 4:16, my basket would soon be empty!!

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Home Again

People say funny things. 
I wish I’d written down some of the interesting comments that random strangers made during our visit to Australia when they found out that we lived in Thailand.  
A classic last week was a shop assistant who exclaimed, “Wow!  That’s like you’ve been on holidays for almost 5 years!”
Hmmm. No. 
No, it's not. 
But I let that one go!!
It is a privilege to love and know people in more than one place… I don’t quite know how to put the past month or so into words. Seriously. I’m speechless.

God is so faithful.

He has once again shown me His amazing love and care though the tiniest of details, and through the incredible generosity of those who keep opening their hands to offer all that they are, and have, to be used by Him.

It all started before we left.

My visa had taken a long time to process and after 12 months of “extensions”, which all cost the same amount of money as the visa itself, I was starting to stress out as to whether it would even get processed at all. 

Eventually around the time we booked our tickets back to Australia, I was told that the visa appointment would be the coming Friday.  But by the time Thursday afternoon came, I was phoned and told that the letter needed for my visa had not arrived from Bangkok and I would (hopefully) be able to go to the immigration office on Monday instead. 
Then it suddenly occurred to me that after all these visa delays, the date of our upcoming trip to Australia was actually going to seriously interfere with the process of trying to get my visa finalised.  You see once you have your visa appointment, the immigration officer stamps your passport for 1 month and then after 1 month, you go back and get the other 11 months added on.  The issue was that in 1 month I would not be in Thailand to get my second stamp and the there was no way that the whole visa would be completed… this was a big problem.
I literally looked to up God and thought, I don’t even see how this can be worked out… to me it seems impossible. 

On the Friday afternoon before the appointment, with still no answer to the problem, I bumped into the pastor of our church. We started chatting and the whole “visa problem” came up in our conversation.  It was then that my ears pricked up, “Oh I’ve just been at a meeting at immigration today” he said. “They’ve just changed the system today and as of Monday, they are introducing a new process called ‘one-stop’.  It’s where they stamp your visa for the full 12 months straight away and you don’t have to go back for that extra stamp anymore.”
What? Had my letter from Bangkok not been delayed and I’d gone to immigration that day, my visa would not have worked out but now just one day before I am to go, they’ve changed the whole process so that when I go it will all work out fine!!!!
God you are AMAZING!! Seriously!! 

This year we’d also hoped to find our own separate accommodation for the majority of our time back.  Whilst we have enjoyed staying with both sets of parents every other year and we have so many fond memories as well as much appreciation for the numerous times they have minded our children when we’ve had meetings and catch-ups at night, we knew that a time would come when our family would simply need more down-time to reenergize (especially for the introverts amongst us).

I had researched a lot of houses online searching through the hundreds of listings of beach units, apartments, family suites, granny flats etc. but everything was just too expensive. I remember saying to God, “If we’re going to do this, I’m going to need to you to find us a place miraculously.”

Well, I had written a blog post mentioning that we were coming back (but not saying anything about accommodation) when, within minutes, a message popped up from a friend offering their house to house-sit while they were away for the school holidays.  I couldn’t believe it! Funnily enough, God obviously knew that our little Eliana (extrovert) and the only one not convinced that we should have our own space, needed the deal sweetened by being able to pet-sit their 2 rabbits and 2 cats while they were gone.  We had one excited girl!

The next answer to prayer came when our friend Aaron asked us if there was anything else he could help us with (he was already doing so much).  Hesitantly we emailed back asking if he knew of any accommodation available for 2 weeks. 
His email {the very next morning} with a place lined up to stay blew me away! And it wasn't just any old place. It was more than we expected or imagined!  

In the week or so leading up to our departure, friends took Eli’s pet rabbits to look after, other friends drove us to the airport, collected mail and washing off the line and upheld us in prayer. 

It’s such a blessing to be a part of God’s family.


Sonia and Colin, once again, so generously let us borrow one of their cars for the entire time we were back.  This was so helpful to us and we really were so appreciative to be able to use it.
During the first few days in Australia, we stayed at my parent’s house.  With the sweet familiarity of being back with them to begin our time here, we were blessed by their warmth and individual love for each one of us.  They amazingly understand all our different needs and some how seem to find the sensitivity to love on us all in only the way they can.

Maria, a lady who lives across from my parent’s home, came around in the few days we were there bringing bunches of bananas, soup, eggs, raisin bread, chocolates and a couple of other bags of fruit and vegetables.  This, along with the many other bits and pieces my mum sent us away with (including the loan of her rice cooker) all made the transition to our “own” place very easy and we set up “camp” thanks to God using others to give so generously.

 Sharing about ZOE at schools.

In our first full week here, we very quickly adjusted to the beautiful Australian landscape, gazing out the back window in awe.  The children loved petting the cats and taking care of the rabbits not to mention jumping on the huge trampoline and having so many exciting toys to play with. 


Our next ‘home’, adjacent to the Cook’s house, became our safe haven.  Here we truly relaxed.  I actually felt teary a number of times as I stared out at the paddocks and watched our children running with sheep, feeding horses, climbing trees and playing soccer.  No amount of searching the Internet could have possibly found a place so perfect.  We enjoyed getting to know the Cooks more through the unplanned conversations in the yard, at the clothesline or over the fence.  Our children were blessed with a new and special friend in Cooper and we will be forever thankful for the kindness and bigheartedness this family showed us.



There are too many individual stories about people’s generosity over the weeks that we were in Australia, but each gesture was so special to us and will not be forgotten.  We enjoyed fish ‘n chips, freezing walks along the beach, toasting marshmallows, celebrating birthdays, fantastic Indian food, a chocolatey feast, barbecue dinners, long chats and much more…. indeed we have some awesome friends and family!!






Dave’s parents also deserve a mention. They once again went above and beyond what we feel we deserved.  We really appreciate their kindness and practical helpfulness and look forward to spending a bit more ‘relaxing’ time together when they visit us in January.

I must say, that whilst it is nice to be home once again, our trip back to Australia was definitely one of my most favorite visits back so far.

Please keep me accountable, I am determined to create space to be more diligent in keeping in touch this year.  Despite having wonderful friends who just let us pick up where we left off, I really feel a strong conviction to be more disciplined in praying for and being connected to all of the beautiful friends we have throughout the upcoming 12 months (as well as updating our blog more frequently!)


Anyway, you know who you are- so thank you from the very bottom of our hearts!

Andie